the next step?

I have an opportunity to send a tape into an executive producer of a record company...crazy. My husband is working in his house and my husband mentioned that he plays guitar and the guy told him to record something for him. James then told him that I'm the one he should be listening to and the producer told him to get me to send a tape in. Wow. Should I? Maybe...maybe not. That's a huge step. Sending one in could mean huge things for me (although it would most likely mean nothing). The thing is...I totally doubt my capabilities when it comes to singing and writing music. I still do it, but only because I love it. It calms me. I find that it can help me reach a place of rest and solace that nothing else can even come close to. So...what to do?

when the whole world is against you...

For the past few months I've had a very difficult time finding words to express what's going through my mind. I'm feeling so many things, from the insignificant to the extremely significant, the simple to the existential. When I open my mouth to try to make sense of everything, or when I start writing down my feelings, I'm usually left shaking my head in silence. It feels as though there aren't enough words to use...and the ones that I could use fall short. I have a whole galaxy of different thoughts and trying to pinpoint one seems an impossible task. Most of the time I simply find it easiest to throw my hands up and say, "I don't know". While this aggravates those around me, it also irritates me. I'm the one living with this mass confusion. Where do I start? How do I start? If only I could narrow this down, or somehow funnel it into a nicely slotted filing cabinet. Wouldn't that be peachy? Today has been total shit and it feels as though the whole world has conspired against me. And to top it off I'm wondering...Is God still faithful?

bria colleen...a blogger?

Who thought the day would come when Bria sits down to write a blog? This was a spur-of-the-moment act done, partially, because of reading my friends blog. I'm not one to read a blog. I tend to be of the school of thought that they are horribly lame and a waste of time. However, this one blog spurred me to jump into the blog world myself...mainly to see what all the hype is about. Who knows, I may enjoy it. I love writing to begin with...it may fit. I guess we'll see.